Tittar upp i taket. Andas. Drar täcket över huvudet. Fosterställning. Men jag är inte är förkyld. Har ingen feber alls faktiskt. Ändå ljuger jag och säger att jag är sjuk och det är inte första gången.
Jag inte kan prata med någon i dag, inte möta en blick, inte kommunicera alls faktiskt. När jag spiller ut kaffe på köksbordet börjar jag gråta, när jag försöker välja kläder får jag panik och kan inte andas. Men jag är inte förkyld.
Varför kommer de vissa dagar där man inte kan röra sig, förlamande panik. När hela kroppen skriker, gör ont och slår inombords. Hur blir man av med de, Jag kanske vet vem och vad som gör mig så här, men de hjälper inte, de hjälper inte att veta de för de säger mig inte hur jag blir av med de. Hur jag ska skaka känslan att jag inte är nog, jag får inte åt mig luften och världen bara trycker mig ner i alfalten.
Att visa sprickorna i fasaden finns inte, jag tejpar och limmar och klamrar fast i varje del som går sönder och spricker i tu, inte visa inte säga. håll ihop, en dag till, en stund till. Håll huvudet över ytan tillräckligt länge så du får ett andetad till innan de mörka drar ner dig igen..
Vissa dagar är värre än andra, och de är såhär jag tog mig igenom dagarna. Jag har fortfarande sånna dagar, ibland fler ibland färre, men jag har fortfarande inte lärt mig hur jag hanterar de.
And I've always been a daughter, But feathers are meant for the sky. So I'm wishing, wishing further, For the excitement to arrive, It's just I'd rather be causing the chaos Than living at the sharp end of this knife
'Cause they say home is where your heart is set in stone Is where you go when you're alone Is where you go to rest your bones. It's not just where you lay your head It's not just where you make your bed. As long as we're together, does it matter where we go?
So when I'm ready to be bolder, And my cuts have healed with time, Comfort will rest on my shoulder, And I'll bury my future behind. I'll always keep you with me, You'll be always on my mind, But there's a shining in the shadows I'll never know unless I try
With every small disaster I'll let the waters still, Take me away to some place real
It was in the darkest of your days When I took your sorrow and you took my pain And buried them away, we buried them away
You dropped me off at the airport Put a kiss on top of my head You watched me wave Then you went on home to your skyscrapers That you call home
I woke up feeling heavy hearted I'm going back to where I started And although I wish that you were near That same old road that brought me here
And I wish I could lay down beside you When the day is done And wake up to your face against the morning sun But like everything I've ever known You'll disappear someday So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away And I can't spend my whole life hiding my heart away
Youknow how tocheer me up, even though Inever told youhow. Youare always there, even thoughyouare so far away I will neverlet you go,just so you know. Unconditional, I will alwayslove you,inone way or another itis because youare who you are you wont lose me darling
Some love stories aren't epic novels, some are short stories But, that doesn't make them any less filled with love.
What's the point in playing a game you're gonna lose? What's the point in saying it's never gonna end?
You're too proud to say that you've made a mistake You're a coward to the end I admit that we're not gonna fit No, I'm not the type that you like Why do we pretend?
When does the silence settle in? Nothing's wrong but nothing's right We hold our breath and close our eyes Let's get out on that ice, it's wearin' thin
I want tears, I want rain If that's what leads me back to you Even if that means feelin' the pain, that's what we gotta do Let it fall apart, come on and break my heart Yeah, break it right in two 'Cause I don't want to smile if that means losin' you
How did we get so low? Here we are pretending that we're doing fine Just scratching at the surface, just gettin' by it's that time we feel something real?
I want tears, I want rain If that's what leads me back to you Even if that means feelin' the pain, that's what we gotta do Let it fall apart, come on and break my heart Yeah, break it right in two 'Cause I don't want to smile if that means losin' you
You've got the best of both worlds You're the kind who can take down a girl, And lift me back up again You are strong but you're needy, Humble but you're greedy And based on your body language, And shoddy cursive I've been reading Your style is quite selective, Though your mind is rather reckless Well I guess it just suggests That this is just what happiness is
And what a beautiful mess this is It's like picking up trash in dresses
Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write Kind of turn themselves into knives And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear 'Cause here we are, here we are
Although you were biased I love your advice Your comebacks they're quick And probably have to do with your insecurities There's no shame in being crazy, Depending on how you take these Words I'm paraphrasing this relationship we're staging
And what a beautiful mess this is It's like picking up trash in dresses
Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say Kind of turn themselves into blades And kind and courteous is a life I've heard But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt oh dear Cause here we are, Here we are Here we are We're still here
What a beautiful mess this is It's like taking a guess when the only answer is yes
Through timeless words, and priceless pictures We'll fly like birds, not of this earth And times they turn, and hearts disfigure But that's no concern when we're wounded together And we tore our dresses, and stained our shirts But it's nice today, oh the wait was so worth it.
I lay beside you, I can't sleep And you don't even know about me My back is turned a world away And you don't even know These tears are falling
I've lost your thousand silent screams I'm coming down this brutal mountain Standing in the light from the darkness And all my life and all my time And all the hurting and all the working
And all my life and all this time And all the prayin' and all the meeting And all the beating, It somehow made me stronger in the end
My love for you has added up to this It's unbroken
You can change the color of your hair, It's not the way your move your hips, Though I can't help but stare. You are a mystery to me.
A thousand miles ain't really that much space, I dream of you dreaming of me kissing your face, And we can talk all night on the phone, 'til the sun comes up.
Forever I pray those beautiful eyes wanna fall upon me, And say, "It's alright, 'cause I'm yours." I'm yours.
When there is love, I can't wait to talk about it When things get rough, I like to walk with you Or when it's night, I like to be the light that's missing And remind you every minute of the future isn't written Not yet
When there is love, or when the heart feels heavy We can lighten it up, if you've had enough Well you can empty your glass and we can fill it back up You know it's up to us to make it all up So what you making up? I can make it up back You could be loved no matter what And know the only time is right now, it's right well where you are
Im happy, you make me smile, and thats just what I need,you are what I need
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